Weekend recap

This past weekend has been pretty laid back, nothing too crazy or fun for my 3 day weekend.

Friday night we went to see the new Thor movie with the in-laws. I LOVED it. It wasn't what I thought it was going to be but it was still worth seeing.

 These were taken Wednesday on my half day at Rock Cut park. It was so pretty out on the trails!

Saturday after work was the definition of a lazy day. We did nothing all day, we didn't even leave the house. Saturday night I made spaghetti squash and we watched Dexter on Netflix until we fell asleep.

Sunday just so happened to be Fuzzy’s 3^rd birthday! So we had lunch over at my aunt and uncles house followed by cake and ice cream, and then birthday presents. I even played hide and seek with her, which basically meant she counted to 3 while I hid in the same spot over and over, but it was totally worth it to her that cute little laugh every time she “found” me.

She LOVED her boots!

Monday (I know it’s not part of the weekend but banks were closed today so it was a weekend for me) I actually got to sleep in today and loved every minute of it! I ended up going to get a pedicure with my grandma this afternoon and then coming home and watched more Dexter while it was cold and snowing out.

Happy Veterans Day, and Thank you to all who have served and are serving!

Anniversary Pictures

Today I went and picked up our anniversary pictures! I was super stoked to get them and see how they turned out. Here a few of the pictures. Enjoy!

 Can I just say how much I LOVE this picture! I clearly have a problem with HIMYM

Week/Weekend recap to come!

Tattoos

This is one of my most viewed posts from my old blog so I thought I would re-post it here. I don’t have much to say about tattoos. I like tattoos, I have tattoos, and that’s about it. I think tattoos are a person’s own choice, and they have the right to get as many as they want. I don’t care if you don’t like my tattoos, get over it. They are MY tattoos and each one has a different meaning to me. So I will put a little description with each picture.

This is the first tattoo I ever got. It is a dove with the olive branch in its mouth and it says never lose hope. I didn't have an easy life growing up, but it certainly wasn't the worst. I got the dove with the branch in its mouth because God sent Noah the dove with the olive branch as a sign of peace or hope, which meant alot to me. Never lose hope, No matter how bad the situation.

This is the second tattoo I got. It says living without regrets. It is in Italian, I had it written in Italian because I am part Italian.

The third tattoo I got with my best friend Alyssa. She HATES butterflies, so it’s kind of funny that’s what we ended up getting. Basically it’s just a best friend tattoo.

This is my Christian fish, with a cross for its eye. I always wanted to get a cross or fish tattoo, so I figured why not get both.

My fifth tattoo is a stargazer lily. The stargazer lily is my favorite flower, and purple is my favorite color. When I visited my aunt one summer she had a gorgeous garden and I took a picture of one of her flowers and that’s what my tattoo is of, except its purple and not pink and a bit more animated.

This tattoo is for my mom. We got matching tattoos for her sobriety. It meant a lot that she finally stopped drinking. I promised her we would get matching tattoos once she stopped drinking and had been sober for two years.

And last but not least my matching tattoo with my husband. Its the roman numeral 27 for our wedding date. This is the only tattoo that is visible all the time. I LOVE this tattoo and it is my favorite of all the ones I have, and it means the world to me.

Dreamer. This one means exactly what it says. When I am having a down day and I catch a glimpse of it in the mirror it reminds me to always follow your dreams.

Most of my tattoos have a bit more meaning then what I wrote, but I don’t feel the need to explain why I have them. And some of the reasons are personal.  there are all my tattoos for now.

Halloween/Weekend Recap

So this past week we both went back to work. The week started off VERY slow at work, I couldn't stand it! Thursday was Halloween and we ended up taking our niece and nephew(Alyssa & Josh) to the trunk or treat at our church. The church was packed! They had such a good turn out and the kids loved it. 

 Friday I worked and came home to catch up on laundry and watch Dexter. 

Saturday I worked like always and came home to take a nap. I went over to our neighbor’s house about 8:30 pm-ish. I ate dinner with them then we watched TV. Jess got off early so he ended up coming over about 1 and we all played pool. 

Sunday was an extremely lazy day! We watched little kid movies all day (I LOVE little kid movies. They always make me feel better when I’m sad or sick). I had to run to target to get new shoes because I wore my favorite pair so much they had holes on the bottom of them after we went to see Bad Grandpa. It was freaking HILARIOUS!!! I laughed so hard I started to cry. Today was a long day at work! We were busy at one location and crazy slow at the other and to top it off my feet were hurting because my new shoes gave me a blister on the top of my foot..ughh!!!

So now it’s time for the Bears vs. Packers game and after a little Dexter! Go Pack Go

Bump in the Road

Before you read any further please remember that I am only human. This is MY blog. If you don’t like what you are reading, please keep the negative comments to yourself. This stuff is done and over with and we are extremely happy, and I promise not to do depressing (it’s not really depressing)post too much. Also this may be a long post so bear with me.

I can’t believe how fast this past year has flown by! Jesse and I started new jobs(right before the wedding) We rented out first apartment, got married, got a cat, got pre-approved for a loan for a house and the list goes on and on! We can skip the wedding stuff because there is already a post on that.

This past year has brought on so many emotions, and changes it was hard to keep track of everything. Last October we finally said “I Do”. Honestly that was the happiest day of my life. The happiness was short lived though (just keep reading) some things happened and only a few people know what really went down. We fought every day! It was so hard getting up every day and putting a smile on my face when all’s I really wanted to do was lay in bed and cry. We didn’t go to counseling like some people suggested; that’s just not me. We I contemplated divorce a few times. We stopped being social with our friends and we were no longer Jesse and Ashley. We were just Jesse and Just Ashley. I started hanging out with my friends without him. He did the same thing. It was really tough, and honestly we brought it upon ourselves. I talked a lot about it with my grandma, and got advice from her. I remember the one night I sat at her kitchen table with her and cried as I told her what was going on. I thought about calling a divorce lawyer because this marriage wasn’t what I wanted it to be. I started to think that getting married was a HUGH mistake. I was packing up some stuff in our room (we had planned on moving out of the apartment I just wanted to get a head start) and I came across this little book I had made him a few Christmas ago. 52 reasons why I love you; that little book I made for him helped made me realize why I fell in love with him. That book saved my marriage.

In April we started to look for our first house. Let me tell you, it is exhausting! We saw so many houses, in such a short amount of time it was 100% overwhelming. We didn’t find anything we really fell in love with so we never put an offer on any of the houses we looked at. Although Jesse really liked one of them and said he wouldn’t mind putting an offer in but, we never did. fast forward a few months, The end of May 2013 we found out we were expecting. We were so excited. I remember taking the stupid test and walking away to put the laundry in the dryer and I came back and I had a BFP (big fat positive). I couldn’t believe it! I ran and jumped on the bed where he was sleeping and woke him up yelling. I probably scared him. I couldn’t wait to start planning everything. I made a doctor appointment for the following Thursday. The doctor told me my HCG Levels were too low to take this pregnancy to term. So we didn’t tell anyone about the pregnancy except family and a few close friends in the event we did lose the baby. Not even 6 weeks after finding out we were pregnant, my mom and grandma took me to the emergency room. I was having a miscarriage. I didn’t feel good at all. I was weak and cramping so bad! And to make matters worse, Jesse was working and couldn’t come to the hospital with me. The doctor who was helping me was so nice! He was explaining everything, and taking his time and making sure I was comfortable. I felt horrible, I had so many questions, and I was mad. I was so mad, and hurt. The pregnancy wasn’t planned, it just happened. Not that it makes it hurt any less, and I thank GOD I wasn’t very far along. But the miscarriage brought us so much closer as a couple.

So now, we are taking things one day at a time. I know our anniversary is the 27^th and this is a bit early, but in the next two weeks we will be very busy (I’ll do a post on that later) and I wanted to make sure I wrote this post before I changed my mind. I use writing as my escape and my way of healing so even though we are past this stuff it sometimes still feels raw. I will be doing an anniversary post of what we did, but it won’t be until after our anniversary probably and we are moved out of our apartment.

 

Vacation Recap & 1st Anniversary

So we started the week kind of slow. Jesse actually worked Monday and Tuesday, so I had the apartment to myself to pack and clean. Monday was extremely uneventful; I don’t even think I put on real cloths that day. Tuesday I helped my cousin with her daycare, and we took the kids to the Pumpkin Patch. It was really cold! We got some cute pictures of the kids and then took them to eat lunch. I was lucky enough to spend the day with my best friend’s daughter, so she got to come with on the “field trip” too.

 After I got back home I packed up the apartment with my mom and then went to my grandmas to watch PLL and Ravenswood.  Wednesday was spent packing and Thursday was moving day. Thursday night I had a meeting at work I had to go to, and then it was back to moving more stuff. I had no idea how much stuff we had! It was crazy. Friday I went to my cousins and helped her with her daycare. 

Friday night Jesse and I went to Statesville Haunted Prison (BTW it was not worth the drive or money) with 2 of our friends. It was actually two haunted houses we were going through, but the wait is what took so long. The drive was about 2 hours both ways; luckily there wasn't too much traffic. By the time we got out of the haunted houses it was already about 11 pm, so we hit up a bar in Naperville. 

Saturday we made our way down to Normal, IL which was another 2 hours both ways. We went to an ISU football game to watch my little cousin cheer. It wasn't too bad temperature wise; it was the wind that made it feel so cold. The game was fun, and one of the cheerleaders got engaged during half time and after we all went to dinner. Saturday night we hung out with friends and went bowling, then headed to the bar. 

Sunday was our actual anniversary, and we planned on going to Chicago for the day but my uncle was having a surprise party so we stayed in town and went to dinner at Lino’s. It's so hard to believe that it has already been a year!

 And to wrap up our week of Vacation today we were bums all day and watched the full first season of The Following. So tomorrow its back to work for me and Jesse goes back on Wednesday.